I've never posted on here before but desperate and really hope someone can help.
My partner of 18 years (father of my 3 kids) has been making me miserable for years. Two years ago I went to my GP for help with depression and had 12 x CBT, conclusion of which was couples' counselling. Partner said he'd only attend if it helped me as he didn't need counselling. The couples counsellor was awful and it made me very distressed, so I decided not to carry on. My partner's self-reporting concluded that he was fine.
He won't talk to me about anything important (feelings, finances, holidays, birthdays, Xmas etc.). He doesn't make any plans. He's got us into serious financial problems and won't talk about or address it. I have to start every serious conversation. His usual response is silence or he says he doesn't understand, even when I've patiently explained how I feel and the logic for something. Even if I think we've got somewhere, he then takes no action.
When I was depressed he made me food and saw to the kids but gave me no reassurance or encouragement to feel better, which would have helped enormously. The house got in a mess and I've spent the past 2 years trying to get things sorted out. He's never tried to help, even when asked, or said 'well done' when I've worked hard to get things back to rights. He doesn't seem to notice.
He's constantly forgetting things, even when I've reminded him numerous times. I've suggested ways to make sure he remembers (lists, notebooks, chalkboard for shopping) but he won't use them. I have shelves and knobs for the kitchen units which have sat there for years (in his eyeline) without him fitting them. I do most things myself but feel quite anxious having to remember everything myself.
He's in the same job he had when I met him. I've had several promotions in between having the kids. We're really struggling financially (still renting a home) but, despite my asking on numerous occasions, he's applied for one job (which he was unlikely to get) in 18 years. When I ask him why he doesn't want to earn more to support the kids, he says we'll have to cut back on spending. I've paid for every family holiday we've had from my own savings, which are now totally used up. I didn't want to touch the savings, which he knows, but he's never offered to pay me back.
He has no hobbies, sees no friends, never goes out. He's always at home. He doesn't have a close relationship with his parents or sibling. I've asked if they could help by calling him more often, but I've had no response. They say he knows where they are if he needs them.
In Jan, I told him it was over and he'd have to move out (even though I can't afford the rent on my own). He said he had nowhere to go and couldn't afford to rent a place on his own. Since then, he's slept downstairs. He gets the sofa-bed out as soon as the kids are in bed (9pm) and listens to the radio. This has gone on for 6 months.
Every time I try to talk to him, he makes me get angry because he says he can't understand what the problem is. He often uses a whiny voice. He says the things that bother me wouldn't bother him and I'm always finding fault with him or that nothing's good enough. But I'm actually very laid back and by no means a perfectionist.
I feel so lonely and I really have felt at times like I'm losing my mind. He says he can't understand why I get angry and shout all the time. I'm fine when I'm at work or with friends. I have a very demanding job that people half my age struggle to cope with. Even when I had very bad depression, I only took a couple of weeks off work.
My partner is an attentive father and comes across to others as a nice man. So I'd be the homewrecker from his and kids point of view, not to mention family and friends, if I leave. I'd struggle to cope with that emotionally.
I just don't know what to do. My own parents had a very bitter divorce (never spoke to each other again), which badly affected me. I don't want to put my kids through separated parents. Apart from the emotional fall-out, If I move out with the kids, then I'd barely be able to rent a one bed flat, so it would be a nightmare and eldest has GCSEs next year.
I've asked him to see the GP. He's reluctantly agree but says he doesn't know what he'd say. Our GP's massively over-stretched so I'm not sure it'll result in anything.
I've recently stumbled across threads on here about passive aggressive partners - and suddenly felt sane. Any thoughts gratefully received.
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Is my partner passive aggressive , depressed or just doesn't care?
EdithBond · 30/05/2017 22:09
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