Just wanting to check this is normal really
Thought I was doing really well - H thrown out last summer because of OW. Marriage wasn't great for a long time beforehand and split was coming anyway. H now in relationship with OW and sees our dd regularly, she adores him and really likes OW. This was almost overwhelming to deal with at first but I managed. Even though H has been nothing but disrespectful, rude and unhelpful with me the entire time.
So anyway. Had an evening out with a friend a couple of weeks ago that I was really looking forward to, and it ended up falling flat. I realised that I had changed,and no longer enjoyed what I used to for years. Next morning I woke up in my quiet, empty house (dd with her dad) and felt so completely alone. It was awful. I cried all day.
Since then I've just gone through the motions - have done all the basics for dd but haven't fed myself properly, house is a mess, haven't even showered as much as I should have - was going to an exercise class I loved but haven't been in 2 weeks. I feel like I've died inside
The cold, hard truth that I've been trying to deny for so long is that I am still heartbroken that dd no longer has her parents together for her as a proper family, that I LONG for a kind, loving man who wants to look after us, and that I simply prefer leading a quiet life on my own without much socializing in the meantime. It feels too boring and sad but its what I actually want.
Almost signed up to online dating but it made me even more upset...I don't want to talk to/date these strange men...it made me feel vulnerable and insecure.
Sorry this is so long, can anyone reassure me that this is a normal part of the separating process
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7 months separated and have fallen down a bit of a black hole
Teepish · 02/02/2017 22:16
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