Hi,
I've been with an amazing loyal, kind man for 10 years. We have two 16 year olds (he has daughter, I have son) from different marriages and very similar backgrounds, our family even live near us, it seems perfect.
He told me a year into our relationship that he didn't believe in marriage and didn't want children, I loved him so much that I was willing to compromise. At the start my relationship with his daughter who was then 6 was challenging, however we overcame this. My son and I moved into his house 6 years ago (4 years into the relationship) and we were happy.
Three years ago my grandparents passed away and monies were given to my son for a public school education. My son is extremely happy and thriving at a top boys boarding school. My partner encouraged this initially.
Over the last 3 years our relationship has started to see cracks. I think his daughter is very manipulative (aren't all little daddies girls) and he dotes on her, she lives with her mother who has since remarried, divorced and now on third boyfriend. His daughter has not had a stable upbringing and she needs her dad, I respect this, he needs her too. However he struggles to be firm with her, perhaps out of guilt.
However in the last three years, I have started to resent this relationship and admit to being jealous as I see him pouring affection over his daughter but don't feel I am getting any back. It's horrible, I feel so bad that I have these feelings, maybe because it's my age, I'm 45. It's making me say things I regret.
Secondly there have been financial issues, even although we are both from established connected well to do families, we have no cash, everything is tied up in assets and our earning power is low. As said, he lives in a Stunning location right near the sea and on a golf course which I love and have made many friends recently through learning to play.He will not allow me to contribute to the house up keep and there are some structural problems in the house that need sorting. Instead he spends the time himself trying to do quick fixes that never work. Meanwhile I rent my house and have income form rent that I could help him with, I've offered many time, he won't accept it. But then I know he secretly resents this as he often comes out with comments about how I'm loaded and I have no idea how lucky I am ( I do). I feel like I'm nagging.
I have made his house a home by filling it with lovely things to make it cosy inside, cooking and cleaning, however compared to the cost of mortgage, bills etc this goes unnoticed.
We hit rock bottom at the weekend over an issue at a wedding where he allowed his daughter a double room on her own whilst my son had to share with us. I secretly wanted some time with him to 'make up' but he allowed his daughter the privacy ove and above ours.
This caused a massive argument and he said things to my son about his privileged education, my son was very upset.Neither my son or I attended the wedding.
My dilemma is that I love this man, he's kind, loyal, family orientated and caring however he will never marry me or even show future commitment in other ways, he will put his daughter first and not allow me to contribute. My self esteem has hit rock bottom and I am concerned about the future for me and my son as well as setting an example to my son about 'putting up with being second best' . Should I accept the status quo to me with this man, I can't stop thinking that I will have the same niggles in ten years time that will eat away at me, making me resentful and nasty but I'm not sure I can give up this man as he is decent and kind with good values, a rare thing.
Not sure what to do.
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Been with partner for 10 years, will not marry
Berk2000 · 26/07/2016 11:54
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