I am a single Mum, one dd, just turned 8. Never had any contact with my Mum, she left the family when I was 7 due to mental health issues.Her boyfriend sexually abused and raped me when I was 5-7. My Dad looked after us but was abusive and neglectful - domestic violence, never fed us, never had clean clothes or hot water to wash with. Forgot my birthday, drank all of the family money, we had a horrible time. Just recently, (past 18 months), I had psychosis, depression, anxiety and ptsd. Friends helped me out and now I'm doing my Masters degree and loving it.
My Dad and I fell out because he keeps wanting to see us and I keep avoiding it as it makes my flashbacks and PTSD worse. long story short, today I snapped and told him I had PTSD because of my past and I coudn't see him anymore. I feel awful, in tears for being such a bitch to him. We had a bit of a row on the phone and then I sent him the following e-mail :
Dad
You obviously don't want to talk to me after I sent that text - fair enough. I think you need to know that the way that you treated me when I was younger was no way to treat a child and has left me with post-traumatic stress disorder, depression and anxiety. My friends have been helping me because I have been ill and you don't have the right to question that. I'm an adult and I make my own decisions, particularly with regard to dd.
You might think that things were Ok when we were growing up- but they were far from it, and have had long lasting effects on both db and I as adults. As a parent myself I almost cannot believe the abuse and neglect we suffered at your hands.
You might not like to hear this, but it is the truth. This is why I am reluctant to spend time with you. If you would like to dd [name removed by MNHQ] then that can be arranged, but seeing you at the moment makes my illness' worse, so I'm afraid until we can talk this through properly I won't be seeing you.
I feel bloody awful! How do I ever apologise to him for being so nasty? Can we ever salvage a relationship from this? I lost my temper and now I feel terrible.
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