I don't know if I want to be married anymore. My mum died when I was twenty and I impulsively married a guy I barely knew. That was three years ago and we now have a dd 18months. I've never really been with anyone else and I realise now I'be completely disappeared. I left uni when I got married and quit my low paid job when I got pregnant. I have no money, no bank account. The house and cars are in his name and I have no income.
I don't know whether I love him, I certainly didn't when we got married. He's not a bad guy, he's made mistakes but overall he's been pretty great. But I just hate living with him. He's a complete slob and just won't listen to me. He's overweight and I'm not attracted to him. He's never been able to give me an orgasm, and I'm so stressed out I can't even give myself an orgasm anymore. Despite all of this I still think of him as my best friend and I wouldn't want to lose him. Besides I don't think anyone else would take me on. I just wish I could go back in time and not make a decision based on grief. I feel like my life was going in one direction and now I have no idea how I ended up here.
I don't know what to do. Would a trial separation help? We could actually date like we should have done before marriage. Is there hope for us?
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Viennaforlife · 11/08/2015 20:14
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