Hi all,
I can't work out if I am expecting too much of DH or if he could be more of a team player in our marriage. It's hard for me to explain so I am going to try with examples.
- He is totally crap at cleaning & tidying but a brilliant cook. Way way better than me. He cooks most night. However as I do most of the early wake up with the kids, washing, ironing, cleaning the house, organising stuff (holiday, social events, inviting his family to stay) present buying, childcare drop off & pick ups, food shopping, etc etc my pay back, is he also tidies up after dinner. My agenda was I may do a lot of the running around however by the time the kids have gone to bed, I can settle down to a nice meal & chill for the evening. But it doesn't work like that. I spend most if the evening going "are you doing the kitchen" with a reply of "yeah in a minute, just letting my dinner settle yadayadayada". So it's nearly bed time he frantically rushes round clearing up leaving 1/2 the stuff in the sink to soak for me to clean up in the morning. No surfaces wiped. No floor swept. I refuse to cave in & do it as this comes under his "jobs". So tonight's a brilliant example, it's bin night. He does bins. However as per, I spend the evening going "it's bin night" & usual DH response "in a min" which results in him getting out of bed now to go and put the bins out. FFS why couldn't he do it earlier?! I know I could do it, but I do ALOT for us so for him to own a few basic chores & get on with it doesn't seem that hard, but why is it? it's so tiring having the same dull conversations with him. Can't he see it's so un fun to be going on at him? I would much rather have a normal conversation.
- I am going through crappy stuff with my parents. Both divorced & are quite sick. DB not around to help so spend a lot of time running around looking after them. DH never asks how I am with it or supports me? He never offers to see where he can help. He never asks how I am? But the really annoying thing about this, he is absolutely brilliant in a crisis. My gran moved into a care home last year, & last min we were let down by a man & a van. All of a sudden DH has organised a van, got some help & moved her in. He even assembled her furniture & helped her unpack. I was literally crying I was so taken back how he was such a support to her. She always tells people about his him & how he looked after that day. Or the time I got stranded missing the last train home from town & he drive out in the middle of the night & picked me up (despite it being my own fault for enjoying myself too much & not watching the time).
- Finally it's this one that gets me the most, our LO. Whenever I walk into a room & it's both of them, DH is playing candy crush whilst LO on the floor playing. Sometimes LO is trying to get his attention but he is so engrossed in his game. He never sits on the floor & plays with him or reads to him. He used to have him 1 day a week to cover one of my work days & he did nothing with him in that time. No walks, or toddler groups or soft play. I feel LO just spent most of the day playing by himself of watching TV (DH was in the room but hiding behind the iPad). I have now started him at nursery partly because I felt LO needed more than being plonked down for a large part of the day with little interaction. However they have a brilliant relationship, DH does nappies, cooks great food & sometimes comes home with a new outfit or small toy for him. LO adores him & lights up when he sees him.
is it me having too high expectations? Could hubby do more? I think bin gate tipped me over tonight as I just wanted to relax & go to sleep & not think about the stuff that needed doing!
Sorry this is mega long, thanks for reading. I know the above is totally immaterial to what some of you ladies are going through right now