Will try and keep short.
OH and I have been married 7 years, together about 10. I am his first sexual partner but he is not mine. I slept with 2 other guys before him in stable relationships.
As my username suggests, I was brought up Catholic though I am no longer in the least religious. However, I do think that my upbringing in Ireland and its lack of sexual permissiveness has probably contributed to my attitude to sex. I generally just end up feeling awkward if I am not giving as well as receiving. Similarly, I have never been one for masturbating really - I give it a try but my brain doesn't shut off easily and I often end up just leaving it be.
OH's doesn't understand how I could feel self-conscious and awkward with my husband. He didn't have sex before me but it seemed once he found the one to be with, that was fine, all floodgates open and he doesn't feel awkward about it. I think he feels that I was probably swinging off chandeliers before him (though I have told him it was not like that and he actually sexually awakened me to a large extent) and can't reconcile how I could not be that bothered about losing my virginity as a big thing but then feel awkward about other stuff. He feels hurt or like it's a rejection of him that I do feel awkward and I have no clue how to explain it really as it's just how I feel.
Any tips?!
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Just 'cause I've had premarital sex,doesn't mean I am particularly sexually open..
AwkwardCatholic · 24/11/2014 14:41
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