This is quite long, so apologies.
I was best friends with a girl since I was 9, we were really close and we went through all the milestones that friends go through together when they are young. Think of that friend you have who is the closest person to you, for me that was her.
So we moved in together when I was in my last year of college, with my boyfriend and two other boys, we all lived here for a year and everything was great except I was leaving to go to university at the end of that year, intending on having a long term relationship with my boyfriend.
So I moved away and a few months later sadly me and my boyfriend split up. I ended the relationship. He was distraught and I felt awful but I wasn't happy anymore and struggling with the long distance, I still loved him very much but I didnt feel like I was IN love with him anymore. So this happened in February.
Bearing in mind me and the ex had been together for 3.4 years.. ONE MONTH LATER secretly my best friend and my ex boyfriend got together. I found out accidentally in April (they didn't tell me) I was absolutely gutted and livid with both of them especially my friend. My ex said it was a huge mistake and it was me he loved, he said it was over between them.
I was furious with my friend but decided that I had to give her another chance, I tried so hard. But in August I found out again that they were still together (again they didn't tell me)
After this I cut them both out of my life, I was so hurt. All of this happened in 2010. It's four years later and it is still tearing me up inside! I miss her so much and some days I think I can forgive her and other days I feel so angry with her. I just don't understand how a girl can do this to her best friend! I know I certainly couldn't.
Is it weird how this still affects me so badly?
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I lost my best friend and years on am still struggling to get over it.
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