I don't know where to start. I am pathetic and rubbish and completely abnormal.
I posted about my ex being emotionally and sexually abusive to me. This relationship ended two years ago and I'm now in a very loving relationship.
I took the good advice on here and sought counselling. Im glad I did, I saw a lady yesterday, she was lovely.
But it's bought it to the forefront of my mind in a way I could never have imagined.
I have been in tears for two hours, my heart is pounding, I feel so distraught and panicky about it all, as if it only happened yesterday.
My dp knows about it but no details. I desperately need him to hold me and tell me its ok, like usual, but he's had a very long day and has fallen asleep. I don't want to wake him.
He came downstairs to see what I was doing, as he thought I was getting a shower. I jumped out of my skin because I was already panicking and he made me jump because I thought he was upstairs. I started shaking uncontrollably and cried even more, he must have thought I had gone crazy.
I'm a normal person, I promise. But I am not acting like one. My dp must think I am crazy. I don't know what to do. I don't want to feel like this anymore. I feel so alone.
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LollyPop87 · 06/08/2013 21:26
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