I am sitting on the floor of my bedroom in tears. I have been for over an hour now. DH is downstairs with dd.
What I want to say to him is 'I think I have pnd. I cry alot when you're not around, I constantly feel like something is missing, I feel ugly, unloved and tired. Today I keep having fantasies about dying as it would be easier if I wern't here at all' (the last bit I wouldn't actually do, but it's freaking me out getting the thoughts)
He comes in and sees I'm crying and I can't tell him - I don't know why but I can't. Instead I just think about how we might split up and the logistics of splitting things we own jointly.
What shall I do? He knows I'm up here crying and is just ignoring me. He came and sat with me but sat on the other side of the room and just went all quiet and said 'what do you want me to say?' (his favourite line). He made no attempt to hug me or be physical or caring in any way. I've been crying on and off all day. He went off in a huff saying it's always his fault as if he's moaning that I keep blaming him for everything.
Does this sound normal? Are we doomed? Why can't I tell anyone about my depressive thoughts? Any replies please if you read this - I'm still in floods of tears :(
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why can't i talk to dh
ReastieHorrorShow · 22/10/2011 14:41
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