Hi,
Last year, I had an early miscarriage at around 6 weeks. I was absolutely devastated, and haven't been able to get over it since. I already have two children from a previous marriage, but have always wanted to have another. My current husband is happy with the two we have, and doesn't want to try for another. When I fell pregnant by accident, I was over the moon. It felt like I had won the lottery, but then that was cruelly taken away from me, and I don't know how to get over it. The thing that makes it even worse is that my husband won't let me try again. I get so frustrated, and just don't understand why I was given something, only to have it taken away and never be allowed to try again. I get sad every time I see babies or pregnant women. It has caused so many arguments between me and my husband, and I feel guilty for that, but he just doesn't understand how I feel. He can't give me a straight answer as to why he doesn't want another child, and says that he wishes he would want one so that I would be happy. The worst thing is that he told me we could try (I take medication which you can't conceive on, so we were going to wait until I'd been off my meds for long enough), then he changed his mind, but didn't tell me, I figured it out and approached him about it! He said he was scared of upsetting me because he knows how important it is to me. We talk about it so often, and I just can't get it out of my mind. Things remind me of it all the time, then that makes me talk about it again, which always turns into an argument. In every way he is a wonderful, wonderful man. He is a fantastic husband and an amazing step-father to my children. My two children are amazing, and I can't imagine my life without them. Yet, in some ways, I feel so empty. I know I should be grateful for what I have already, and I wish I could move on, but I'm finding it so hard and feel like no-one understands me. I'm starting to feel really angry and resentful towards my husband, and am scared that this is starting to drive a wedge between us. I feel like I am completely at his mercy, and have no choice in what happens. Any advice or help would be gratefully appreciated. I feel like I'm going insane! Thanks x
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diamonddust444 · 14/10/2015 15:34
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