Hi there,
My BF asked me yesterday if I'd thought that I might have PND. It had never crossed my mind when having read various sites detailing the symptoms and looking back over the last year, I wonder whether I could have it. My sister was diagnosed when my DNiece was a year old and has now been on AD for 4 years and is no better - however, I put that down to a very bad GP as surely they must have found something to help her by now - they just keep increasing the dosage...
Anyway, so this is my situation.
I had to go back to work fulltime when my baby was just 4 months old. I had loved being at home with her and things changed when I went back to work.
I hated my job and needed to find a new one (in the same company) because of cut-backs, so I did. I went for a completely different job, something that I thought I would really enjoy.
Since then, I have just spiralled downwards. I am miserable all the time. I have accused my DH of having affairs, I can't concentrate at work and am falling behind. As I work from home on my own (the rest of my team are based in an office 150 miles away), I've managed to cover all my mistakes so far, but I'm really worried that I will make a massive error soon and will lose my job. But I still don't just get on with it!
I have loads of friends, but will only see them if they come to see me. I don't want to go out - although when I do make the effort, I generally have a good time. Very often I cancel at the last minute because I'd rather just be by myself.
I am tired ALL the time, even though my DD has slept for 12 hours a night since she was 5 weeks old.
When I look back, there was a trigger that perhaps I should have taken notice of. My DD was ill when she was tiny and it caused problems with her feeding. At 14 weeks we went to see the HV for a regular weigh-in and my DD had dropped a couple of centiles. I broke down in tears and was convinced that someone would accuse me of not feeding her, so I didn't take her back to be weighed again. I worry about her constantly even though I have arranged excellent childcare. She's a very happy rounded child, independent and confident (even just for a one year old!).
So, in addition to all this, I have no energy, hate my work and have no motivation to do anything. I am a stone heavier than I was pre-baby and as much as I hate it, I really struggle to lose any weight, I just don't have any motivation to lose weight at all.
The only time I feel happy is when I'm with my baby girl. We have no choice but for me to work full-time as I'm the main earner and so I worry about that aswell.
My BF said that she's never known me to be so quiet and withdrawn and when she suggested PND, I wondered.
With someone that has some experience tell me if this could be the case. I'd almost be relieved I think as I'm worried that I have changed forever and may never be really happy again.
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Could I have PND?
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DawnAS · 03/07/2010 20:02
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