Can't keep going

[FatSeal]

Couldn't think where to post this, as I don't think I've got pnd this time round, but feeling very bad today. I have a 9 week old dd and a 5 year old dd; the relentless breastfeeding is getting me down, I have no idea what will happen at any given moment, when she'll need a feed or if I'll be able to get her down for a nap. If she does fall asleep, she wakes up if I try to put her down, and on the rare occasions she stays asleep, I am unable to decide what to do first and rush round the house doing half-arsed jobs of all the things that need doing. Dd1 gets shouted at lots as I am so irritable, and I never seem to just be able to shrug off her dawdling or incessant noise. If I dare to moan, dp goes mad about how he does everything and just works all the time, the evenings are awful as dd1 just cries and howls whatever you do, and I have no idea when any of this is going to get any better.
Sorry for the huge moan, just needed to get it off my chest to a friendly ear.

[comewhinewithme]

I think you should stop stressing about housework do the bare essentials when you can or feel up to it.

DD1 is probably feeling a bit out of sorts all her routine has changed aswell and it must be odd try and get her involved with the baby when you are feeding ask if she will read you and the baby a story or draw a picture for the babt (I do this with my 4 year old she likes to feel helpful).

The first few weeks are the hardest could you try getting out of the house at least once a day walking really makes you feel better and will the dd's out which is an added bonus.

I am going through similar and have found lots of tips about coping on MN stuff like walking ,if you don't feel up to it doing just 15 mins housework a day will help.
This list here is amazing for when you feel out of sorts .

www.mumsnet.com/Talk/feeling_depressed/368966-self-help-plan-for-all-those-struggling-to-cope

[compo]

Poor you

have you got any help? Friends or family who would take eldest child out or maybe walk your baby while you have a nap?

Have you tried a sling? Or an automatic swing that will rock her to sleep?

[FatSeal]

Thanks for the kind suggestions; dd1 is at school so theoretically dd2 and I should be able to sort ourselves out with naps during the day, but in some ways the school runs throw everything off- it's always just the wrong time to be going out, and I either have to rush feeds or try to keep her going and listening to the grizzling.

I honestly tried to drag myself out for a walk after drop-off this morning but I wasn't sure if the babyhad gad enough and I was so thirsty and tired that I just came home instead.

Dd1 is very good with the baby and tries to help with her all the time- but even that irritates me. I do get her to read stories to us as we can do her school homework then as well, and she covers us in sticky label pictures too, so I just need to stop snapping at her :-(

I could put her in the sling but I'm not sure it would make things easier- I'll just sit on the sofa with her and wait for the next feed to be required... at least I stand a chance of reading the book club book!

Thanks for listening