I have been depressed on and off for several years now and am going thru a bit of a rough patch. Have spoken to doc, asked for counselling which is to be scheduled, taking more exercise, trying not to over eat, trying to get a bit of fresh air each day.
But I think my paranoia, low self esteem, nervousness etc. have slightly pushed my few friends away and I think that although I need friends, I struggle to make them. I find that when I'm in situations when I could be trying to be upbeat and cheery, engaging with people, like this am at baby singing group, i tend to retreat, I get nervous and I think I disappear a bit. I felt like everyone around me was chatting to someone. I was there with a friend but she was talking to someone else and they didn't really draw me into their chat. I have never been good with friendships, I make decisions about people very quickly and I find most people get on my nerves eg in the group I'm at a woman turned up today perfectly dressed and carrying a cup of coffee, wearing mascara etc, but with 2 messy children, one with hair not brushed and son with no shoes or socks on. It's freezing! I just was a bit unimpressed that she could glam herself up but not her kids. So when she did talk to me I decided she wasn't my cup of tea and didn't really speak to her much.
I don't know what to do, I need to meet more people but I think I get worried about my own negativity - I overanalyse everything and it stops me from being a bit more chilled.
Any thoughts on my ramblings?? Just need a bit of support, am going to have a look round on the net for any helpful sites too.
Have any of you done a self-esteem course etc?
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Depression and friendships - help
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titferbrains · 10/11/2009 14:33
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