Depression and eating - wtf is wrong with me?

[Alibabaandthe40nappies]

I was diagnosed with depression at the beginning on May, prescribed Sertraline and for a while things improved. Worries around DH's job and me going back to work after mat leave sorted themselves out and I felt like I was getting back to myself. Started exercising and eating better and lost almost a stone.

Forward a couple of months and some family issues flared up again (part of what got me down in the first place although a lot of it is PND). I have been going downhill again for about a month, struggling with day to day stuff, various outbursts, and over eating hugely. All the weight has gone back on, and if I can't get a grip on myself I'm soon heading for my heaviest ever

Went back to see my GP again today and she has increased my dose of ADs, and also referred me for some counselling.
What can I do to help myself with the eating? I have eaten God knows what today - not enjoyed a mouthful of it, just shovelled it in. I hate myself for doing it, it makes me so miserable. I do ok for a couple of days and then it all falls apart again. I know I need to exercise, I feel so much better when I do but I struggle so much to motivate myself.

Argh. What a ramble - well done if you got to the end.

[ABitWrong]

Oh I am so sorry
I have food ishoos too which meansI have phases of just eating and eating andit is really really horrible.
Are there particular foods that you eatr when you feel like this?
I tend to eat things that are not so good for me.
Could you try surrounding yourself with fruit that you like and trying not to buy the stuff you eat too much of?
It is really really hard. If you have a good day then celebrate it.

With theexercise...start small. Go for a walk...a long er one each day. Don't know how easy it is for you to get child free time but I find running v good when I get the chance. Swimming is another good one (I never get the chance to do this!)

Just little steps, go easy on yourself, and keep posting xx

[Alibabaandthe40nappies]

ABW - thanks for replying

I tend to eat things which aren't good for me, I crave cake, crisps etc.
Some days I do better - today I feel a bit more positive and have had a healthy breakfast, I hope I can keep it up during the day.

I can exercise at home no problem while DS is asleep (I am a SAHM to a 13 month old), it is lack of motivation rather than lack of opportunity that is my problem.
I talked to DH about it all last night and we are going to exericse together in the evening after DS is asleep, and hopefully motivate each other.

You are right, it is so hard.

[ABitWrong]

Oh, good for you. That sounds like a good plan.

[IOnlyReadtheDailyMailinCafes]

Sertraline and other similar tablets can affect your appetite. My AD are one of the reasons that I have put a lot of weight on.

[IOnlyReadtheDailyMailinCafes]

Overeating can also be linked to depression of different types and personality disorders. One of the things that flagged up my condition was the fact that I would get up in the night and empty cupboards of food. I am having therapy to help me deal with food in a safe way.

[Alibabaandthe40nappies]

IOnly - the weight has been here since long before the ADs, it is only recently though that I have realised how closely related my state of mind and what I eat (and how much) are.

I went out for a walk today which helped, and my eating has been normal. DH is home late tonight though so I'm fighting the urge just to eat loads of toast when I should have a proper meal.