Am never normally like this. Don't know why I am feeling like this today really.
Woke up at 5am and couldn't get back to sleep so finally got up around 6.15 to discover it was snowing (am in Budapest). Felt a bit blurrgh about it but was OK. Tried to get car out of garage to take DS to school but couldn't get it up the hill (garage is in basement) - supposed heated driveway not working. Phoned school to say DS wouldn't be in as we are snowed in.
Have cancelled dental appointment for 11.
Feeling really guilty as DS has missed so much school lately through illness. He is in Yr 3 and struggling a bit. Feeling stressed about the fact that he is struggling and will be going into Yr 4 next year and has struggled with stuff (mainly maths) in Y3. Shouted at him yesterday a few times as every time I try to get him to do any reading/maths/schoolwork he moans and it is a constant battle. But then again he is only bloody 7! Neither he nor I should be stressed about bloody schoolwork when he is only 7.
Just been home in Dublin for a week last week and the whole time was depressing and frustrating. My mother is 70 and had a mild stroke last April. She does nothing. Goes nowhere. Spends a lot of time in bed. This has all been going on for a few years and she does sod all to help herself and says it is nobodies business. However my Dad is getting more and more stressed by it all - she is paranoid about him being up to something with a male neighbour so won't let him out of her sight practically. Dad had a bleed behind an eye recently and as part of seeing the doc they did blood tests and an ECG - he has high blood pressure and they found a problem with the ECG so he needs to see a cardioligist.
I could shake my Mum really bloody hard as she is just bloody wasting her life.
MIl phoned last night to let us know that her Mum us sick. She is 102 and a real sweetie but has been getting frailer and although obv she has had a 'good innings' I feel sad for her and MIL. And I look at my Mum and could scream.
So I am at home with DS. The cleaner is here so I can't even have a good cry in private.
My stomach feels all knotted up and this is what my mother says all the time and I don't want to be like her. I don't want to phone anyone as I will just cry.
Fuck.
Don't even know why I typed all this. Sorry.
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Feeling very tearful and all knotted up inside and as if there is a big black cloud hanging over me
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Buda · 23/02/2009 08:37
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