I don't know if this is mental, physical, or just meh tbh...

[Flamesparrow]

I am so tired.

I am worse when I am low anyway, but atm I don't know if I am low because I am tired, or tired because I am low.

I signed up to art group with Flameboy last half term - he loved it, but I can't decide if I should do it again this time round - it is sculpture this half term, so clay and loads of stuff he would love...

BUT... He has nursery on a weds morning, he will be starting preschool at the end of the month on a Tues & Thurs pm, we do playgroup Fri morning (for my sake - I have friends there).

He isn't lacking in activities. I am tired, and it isn't likely to get less tirednessly any time soon... am I a horrible mother for not renewing this term for my sake?

Were it on a Monday I would be there like a shot, but this whole going back and forth all bloody day just makes me miserable (Thurs = Drop DD to school, kill 30 mins before art group, kill 30 mins before picking up DH, then an hour before preschool, collect from school/preschool then swimming... )

I don't want him to miss out I was too nervous to do any of this stuff with DD, he is very much mummy's boy and he is going to be feeling shoved out with extra preschool etc

Help me decide! Tonight is probably not the best time to be over analysing - eyes propped open with matchsticks.

[Scootergrrrl]

Don't do ANYTHING which makes you miserable - whether it's pointless to-ing and fro-ing or beating yourself up about being a bad mother which you clearly aren't. Let him make a mess at home instead

[Flamesparrow]

Ah see that is the problem - home is already always such a mess, I can't let him do it or it will be destroyed

[Scootergrrrl]

That bit was not so serious...

I think the advantages of him having a good time at art group will be outweighed by how miserable all the hanging about will make both of you.
And from some of his escaping exploits in the past, I'm not sure he's the kind of child to sit quietly in the pushchair and wait around.

Is there anything else you could do which would be less complicated, if you really feel like he needs something else?

[BlaDeBla]

Make sure you get a bit of time for yourself and do something which is easier for both of you. Our house is pretty much constant chaos too. I find a roll of wallpaper and a palette of watercolours is pretty entertaining. Wax crayons are less likely to get all over the place, or coloured pencils or felt-tip pens (if you dare). You don't have to be going out all the time for entertainment!

[Flamesparrow]

Have decided that it is best to stop it. It is money and energy I don't have.

I know you're right about not needing to be out - it is mainly that I am used to DD who has to be out constantly