I have been with my DP for 16 years, i have an 18 year old DD and we have a 3 year old DD that we adore. Things are tough financially and this is taking its toll on our relationship.
The thing is, whenever i try and think about the future - i see me as a lonely old hag on my own with a whiskey bottle. I can see me trapsing around the town, people trying to avoid me, my breath stinking of cooking sherry That thought has been playing over and over on my mind. Either that, or I will be dead as i am convinced I wont see my DD2 grow up.
Im on medication and having counselling - but all i can see is this bleakness. I want to fight back, but i don't know where to start. Getting a job is proving harder than i thought. I just feel in a constant state of panic. I have namechanged by the way, i guess from this some of you will figure me out and lose patience.
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When i "look into my future" it frightens me.
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exasperatedmummy · 10/10/2008 18:03
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