I don't know if this is the right place to post. And I've changed my name because I really am ashamed about this. Or embarrassed at least.
Dd is nearly 2 1/2 and since she was born I've been plagued, driven half mad sometimes, with thoughts of awful things happening to her. I thought it might be some form of PND for the first year and it did get easier from 1-2. But since she turned 2 it's back. I can't begin to tell you the kinds of nightmare scenarios that go through my mind but they're all based around her being hurt or tortured by someone in front of me while I am held back / tied down etc. She is calling for me and screaming and in terror and I am unable to help her. Sometimes I'm lying awake for 2-3 hours at night with these thoughts which I truly can't get out of my mind. I get into a cold sweat and end up crying and crying. Other times I'm just on the bus and realise I've been lost in one of these 'stories' and am crying to myself.
What is this? What can I do? Am I mad???
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obsessive fears about things happening to dd
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changedmynamecosamashamed · 03/03/2005 09:56
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