I am a regular poster but have changed my name for this. Not sure why really but anyway I have done.
I have suffered with depression in the past and when DS was 9 months was diagnosed with PND and was taking ADs until I discovered in January that I am pregnant again. As it wasn't planned that rather shook me and terminating the pregnancy was an option that DH and I discussed but haven't done.
I can feel the greyness sinking on to me and I know I am being horrible mainly to DH. I can cope at work by retreating into my shell. I am mainly OK with DS; I think I am lucky that he likes to sleep though.
Last night when DH got back home I was saying all the wrong things to him - I don't mean to sound so horrible but it just comes out that way. I feel worn out all the time (feeling sick all the time doesn't help) and feel like I don't have the physical or emotional energy to be able to cope with anyone else.
I just want to crawl away somewhere on my own and not have to face anyone. But it's not going to happen. Plus we are moving house soon and I can't begin to think how it's going to happen.
I feel like I'm screaming inside all the time and sometimes it bubbles out. Last night I threw a bowl and smashed it which was when DH decided it was time to go and do the shopping that I hadn't done.
Just feel so awful. But keep going on because that's what you do isn't it. Just can't really see the point.
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whatsthepoint · 01/03/2005 08:24
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