I'm a regular-ish poster on mumsnet, but ave changed my name for this as i'd like some advice but don't want people knowing what's wrong with me. I've been on anti-depressants for 2 years now and no-one except my Dr and DH know, so I'm quite private about it all, which is why I don't want MNers knowing who I am? Do you understand? It might sound silly, but I can't help it.
Anyway, I've got a loving dh, an okay job, a beautiful nearly 5 mo daughter and basically everything should be great. Except it isn't. I decided in January that after 2 years I was going to stop taking ADs which I did, but I've gone into a downward spiral since. I'm back to crying every day for no particular reason except that I'm sad and I'm not even sure why.
I'm having doubts about my mothering skills, have awful thoughts abuot Dh not loving me and DD growing up to hate me etc. I feel so crappy about myself, my job, what I haven't done with my life, how I'm never going to do lots of the things I wanted to and basically want it to stop. Some days I just want everything to go away (not as in killing myself), I just want to be on my own, in a room and have some quiet. Before I had DD and before I went on ADs, I would soemtimes lie under the blankets in the spare room and just sob for hours on end, and I can feel the smae desire to be left alone, not to want to go out, not to see or speak to people returning.
Just wanted to hear from some others who've got through depression and maybe give me well-needed kick up the backside
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Advice for a sad lady
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bitdowntoday · 25/02/2005 23:18
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