worried

[smurfgirl]

Work is going to shit at the moment and I am feeling so shakey and dodgy in myself, I feel I deserve mega mega punishment and i know thats not safe.

I just wrote a big list of things I want to do to myself and its so fucking grim, I am so disgusting and horrid and awful and stupid and I deserve these bad things.

I don't want to eat because I feel I don't deserve it, I feel just like doing something big and then I won't fail.

I banged my head so hard today that I thought I might faint.

And its all my fault that I feel like this urgh urgh urgh.

Yes I do see someone and I will probably be ok.

[cruisemum1]

smurfgirl for you. I havent got any advice but wanted to know that we are listening to you and wishing you well. So pleased you are seeing someone about this too. don't hurt yourself - you are a good person. I hope you get some proper help/advice from someone soon.