ive recently split with partner of 9 years after 3 months of maybe getting reconciled and feel today like ive hit rock bottom.ive got 2 beautiful kids whom i adore but im dreading xmas and what comes after.we're living with my parents until exes property's sold then i hope to either rent private or get a council place.i miss him so much i physically hurt,we're still friends and i know really thats not helping me but i cant face the prospect of anything else at the moment.i miss my independence and privacy so much too ,although my parents are great at 32 i feel too old to be living with them ,im used to doing my own thing with the kids and its impossible at the moment.moneys tight and i havent even started my xmas shopping yet.not that ive many to buy.ive lost all my close friends as some are with partners and kids and some still single.
i just feel so alone ,ive bought a packet of 25 xmas cards and dont even have to send half of them.my daughter(4)putting such a brave face on all of whats happened but she adores her dad and misses him so much it breaks my heart.luckily my son(1) doesnt really understand.
i try to stay positive and get on with evrything,even making goals to aim towards but its just getting too much.my ex and i still get on so well and really it was only money probs that split us up.i also have this deep rooted feeling that its not over between us,i dont know if its intuition or just me hoping too much.
it seems the nearer to xmas i get the worse i feel i just want things to get better and be able to cope and see my way through it all.
anyone got a magic wand to take this all away lol
i wish....
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dont know how im going to get through xmas and beyond
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karenanne · 20/12/2004 12:25
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