Sadness and anxiety

[Sofacomfy]

Hello,
Don't really know where to start and am afraid of sounding silly! I sometimes feel very sad and it can come on all of a sudden and also a horrible panicky feeling to accompany it. For the past few months I've been worrying myself crazy about the fact that one day my mum and dad will no longer be here (they're both mid-late 60s and in reasonable health). I suddenly have a terrifying realisation and start to panic and feel overwhelmingly sad. Just cannot cope with the thought of them not being here! I am so distressed to even type this!!! I also worry about my DC and every little sniffle they have i worry that it might develop into something worse.
I sometimes find myself on the verge of tears and sometimes feel the need to cry in public if someone is kind to me or says something nice. Its like a put a front up to hide my sadness and anxiety but sometimes it rises to the surface. Sorry none of this makes much sense!!!!

[Sofacomfy]

Sorry meant to add (pressed post too soon!), does anyone else feel like this?
Thank you

[Sorryshesgone]

Hi Sofacomfy Just wanted to say that I also feel like this. I can be struck with a wave of emotion just out of the blue, worrying mainly about my family dying. It is an awful feeling and I think this time of year maybe heightens the feelings? Anyway just wanted to say you are not alone in feeling this way.

[KarBB]

You could have been describing my exact feelings about 1.5 years ago. I'll write more over the weekend when I have a bit of time but for now sending love & sympathy & hopefully some reassurance that the feelings can pass - I get the odd moment now but it's no longer all consuming the way it was initially xx

[VMcMummy]

You are not alone. I get episodes of this too and I am so sorry that you are going through this now. I strongly recommend that you go and speak to your GP sooner rather than later. They can help. These are very difficult feelings but you can get some support. Sending virtual hugs

[Sofacomfy]

Thank you all so much
Everything can be going along fine and like you say, a sudden wave of panic and desperation hits from nowhere! I have a young son with SN too so feel particularly emotional about him and his issues in school. I cannot cope with the thought of my mother and father not being here because they are my support. I know there are so many people my age and younger who have already lost parents and my heart really goes out to them.

[KarBB]

I had a few waves of this over the weekend while spending time with my parents. It started when my dad hit 50 almost 20 years ago & he got an 'over the hill card- I was only 8 and was fast becoming a worrier already). :(. When mine hit a peak (or trough) last year it all got a bit out of hand & I ended up signed off work for a month with anxiety, panic & depression. A combination of mindfulness, CBT, exercise & ADs helped me through & I feel much stronger now. My panicky / morbid thoughts are only sporadic (brought on this weekend by some annoying work stress and possibly the grim weather)! and most of the time life is good. If you ever feel it's getting too much then maybe think about talking to your GP. It took me a while to access proper help but I found a couple of GPs who were incredibly supportive as well as sone good therapists. X

[KarBB]

Ps. I have a bro with SN who really relies on my dad for support so I have similar concerns about coping and arranging his care in the future. It sucks and I have every sympathy for you.

[Sofacomfy]

Thank you so much
Sorry for the late reply
Just find everything such a struggle sometimes, it's hard to put it into words!