Feeling like a fraud

[nordstrom]

I have my first CBT appointment tomorrow (after being on the list for 7 months). The thing is I'm not sure I am 'bad' enough to need therapy ...

I started not feeling right during pregnancy with my youngest dc. Random attacks of anxiety and the odd full blown panic attack.
I knew it might continue/get worse after the birth, and for a couple of weeks (under the hormonal haze!) it was bloody awful. I felt truly miserable and pretty scared at the scale of my anxious thoughts...

However. It gradually got much much better, and today (he is nearly 2 now) I generally feel fine. I basically have regular, but not daily, anxious thoughts which are horrid but manageable. They centre around my dc having accidents etc. I struggle with watching every day activities eg rough and tumble play, jumping on the trampoline because they make me feel panicky. The park is an ordeal for me as I am terrified of swings for some reason.

So that's it really. I'm worried that I am wasting everybody's time by taking this therapy appointment. Should I cancel!?