As once my teacher said"...you don't even notice her in the room, she's just there".
I feel this way as I'm walking down the street, as I'm inside these four walls with myself and my toddler.
No one really cares-who I am or how I feel, people just dare to give me looks. Every look people give me feels unfair because I can sense they despise me, pitty me, think of as easy and so on.
I'm not someone they worry not to missjudge it seems.
All the noise I try to make-people don't seem to care.
Sometimes I feel like I might be autistic even tho I know I am not. I feel this because I just don't understand why are people looking at me so strangely when I talk or just am? Am I so weird, uncomfortable? When I think I'm acting perfectly normal people seem to be giving me the look"what's going on with this poor girl".
I feel like I am trapped in a strange, if not wrong body(and I do not refer to being female I'm perfectly content with that).
Everything I do comes out wrong I feel it's someone else doing it not me. Nothing makes sense to me. Everything I want to or try do quickly seems to become a trap.
I just can't stand living this life anymore.
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Feeling see-through
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Satorye · 21/06/2018 01:41
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