So I started having some mental health issues about 7 years ago
Over the years they have built up and it’s been a terrible year. I’m in a position now where I’m struggling to hold a job down or live my life normally not that most people would realise that.
At the end of last year my partner left me and to be honest I’ve just not been able to get over it. He was the only person who understood my illness and I still have to turn to him for support.
Anyway I got offered a dream job for 2 months abroad. The most amazing opportunity and one I had dreamt of.
I arrived 10 days ago and had a total breakdown yesterday. Ended up having to go back to my hotel and just lay their crying for hours and hours.
I thought about going home yesterday but that is even worse than staying.
The thing is there is nothing wrong with my job and i should be loving it.
The only one thing that has happened is that I’ve been rejected by a man that I had a brief liaison with in the summer, he’s ran very hot and cold with me and happens to be out here too and I thought something would happen and now it’s clear it won’t.
I honestly spent yesterday wondering if life is worth it anymore as if I can’t be happy right now in my happiest time when can I ever be happy?
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It’s just not getting better.
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pambeesley · 25/11/2017 03:54
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