I went through a horrifically abusive relationship with my youngest daughter's dad. The relationship itSelf was 2.5 years, followed by another 2.5 years of going to court, 19 times in total.
That all ended 3 years ago and I've definitely come a long way since then. I have been to the doctors several times over the years since this all happened, and they have prescribed antidepressants, sleeping tablets and Valium. But I don't think I am depressed. Through doing my own research I am certain that I have PTSD, but this has never been suggested by the doctor, and I have never mentioned that I think I might have it.
The main way that it affects me is the nightmares. I have such bad nightmares that I wake up in terror and can't get back to sleep because I'm too scared. I also sometimes just get a feeling that he is going to come here in the night and weeks or sometimes months will go by where I'm too scared to sleep until it's light, so depending on the time of year I might only get a couple of hours sleep at most.
I also feel like my nerves are completely shot now, loud noises make me really jump, which never used to happen. I'm generally more stressy and likely to lose it with the kids if they misbehave. And if things start going wrong, with the dc's schooling for example, I can't cope with it and it will send me into a massive and sudden decline, where I feel completely unable to function.
It's like all my coping reserves have been used up, if everything's ticking along ok I manage, but if not then the wheeels really come off.
Is there any point in mentioning this to the doctor? I know with all the cutbacks it's really hard to access any treatment for mental health, and I've heard it's very hard to get a diagnosis. I just think if I go I'll be wasting my breath, and I'll get another rx for happy pills and a form to apply for 6 weeks counselling, like has happened every other time I've spoken to the doctor about what's going on.
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Getting a PTSD diagnosis?
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WildBelle · 21/07/2017 21:42
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