I have suffered from anxiety and panic attacks for years but it has never been as bad as it is now. I know my issue - Fear of dying and being completely out of control.
I get myself wound up that something bad will happen so i don't do it. I go to work and I can handle that and I am pretty normal but outside of work i am a nervous wreck and i didn't used to be!
My partner works away 3 months at a time and we are moving into our new house in July but I cannot stop feeling so anxious. I am so scared that something is going to happen to me whilst he is away and he won't be able to get home to me in time. Every time I get in my car I think "I could be in a crash today". I am scared that something could happen which could affect our future and I am at the point where I won't go out at the weekends because it is not worth the risk.
Every day is different but today is by far the worst. I spoke with my partner (extremely supportive), explained everything that is in my head and he said he never realised how bad it is and I need to go to the doctors.
Years ago I went to the doctors and was put on amitriptyline but i was very sensitive and had bad reactions to them. I have since tried herbal medications and am currently trying Valerium (also herbal) - the only effects of this so far is it helps me sleep. I had diazepam once for a flight but it didn't even touch the edges and i still had a panic attack on the flight.
When i think about where my mind was after everything, in know it is so stupid and illogical but at the time i am anxious, everything is blown out of proportion and makes perfect sense.
I am scared to go to the doctors, a) incase i just completely break down and burst into tears and cant get any words out. b) they don't take me seriously enough and i get fobbed off.
Can anyone please fill me with hope and success stories that there really is an end to the dark tunnel. Thanks so much.
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bear28 · 19/02/2017 16:10
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