Do you ever get over it and if so, how?

[itsmeitskathee]

I've been depressed on and off for my entire adult life. On and off antidepressants for long periods of time. PND after first child and back on antidepressants again. Came off for a while, circumstances stressed me out and dr gave them back to me and I've pretty much stayed on them. I've had private counselling and done the CBT course, done a mindfulness course, recognise the good things, exercise regularly and try not to drink too much alcohol and not eat too much convenience food. I try to not get too tired and look after myself but I just feel so down and angry.
Recently changed from fluoxetine to sertaline after a couple of weeks when I couldn't stop crying and had been feeling really angry. That seemed to help for a few weeks but I'm back to just feeling miserable and remote from myself, empty, lonely and down. Work is very stressful (possible redundancy on the cards) and I have 2 DCs and DH works in a senior role requiring a lot of travel.
I'm also peri menopausal but I'm just struggling and feel depressed and down.
Am I ever going to be better? What else can I do? Sorry this is so long. I really would appreciate some advice.

[booksandcoffee]

Sorry you are suffering so much. Have you thought about trying hypnosis to change your mindset? If you are open minded about it it might just do the trick.

[peppatax]

No, in my experience you don't but as it seems like you are doing already, you just take positive steps to manage it the best you can.

[AnxiousCarer]

For me I've had 2 episodes of depression and one of PTSD. It sounds like you are doing all the right things. Have you heard of nlp, that has been a game changer for me. The other thing I realised was that I was doing all the right things and feeling worse and worse but putting pressure on myself to do things to make me better, it was when I relaxed a bit and gave myself permission to feel crap that I started to feel better!

[fallenempires]

I think much of it is down to things which aren't our doing so we have no control over them as such if that makes sense.In my case it's just the constant muddle in my mind of what can I do next,when there isn't necessarily a next as it's out of my hands.Not helpful as such I know in giving a way forward for you.When is your review appointment?

[itsmeitskathee]

Thanks for your replies. I'm just so fed up with what feels like a never ending battle. I'm certainly up for hypnosis. I know the CBT thinking. But when you are in the middle of it, it's hard to put into practise.
I'm thinking about counselling again. I must have seen 6 different counsellors over the years - paid for myself - and that's helpful to get through the immediate problem / situation but I just don't seem to have any ability to cope on an on-going basis.
Next review is 8 weeks.

[fallenempires]

Anxious mentioned the treatment which has turned things around for her,might that be worth a try too?
8 weeks is a long way away.If I were you I would make an ASAP appointment.Your GP would want to know if you're struggling.