I normally post somewhere else but wanted to do this one anonymously. Don't want to darken someone else's NYD.
If I wasn't here, a few people would be upset for a little while but then life would resume and things would go back to normal. That's the way life is.
The people who are really hurting me don't have the awareness to change their behaviour while I'm alive, so even if I wasn't here, I don't think they would think they might have had something to do with it.
Life is hard. 2016 had been the hardest and most testing of my life and the way this year has started too means actually there are only a few people who care about me, and they will cope without me.
I live for my DC right now, but I am losing them to toxic family and fear they will become indoctrinated and contaminated by them. I can't cope thinking my children will turn out like them, selfish, vain, greedy, mean and with misplaced priorities.
When you go through a rough patch, and start telling friends about it, it's all exciting for them to be part of shocking updates and gossip, like being part of a soap in real life. But after a while, the number whittles down, some get bored with it all and step away, even though they've told you they'll be there for you - but when you really need them, they aren't there at all. They don't check at difficult times such as this time of year to see how you're doing, if you needed somewhere to go because they know your situation. People are endlessly disappointing. There are some good ones but the good ones are not near me.
I'm nobody's responsibility and don't want to be. I'm just disappointed in people over and over. Why do people make empty offers all the time, if you need some help I'm here. You ask for help and they make excuses. Don't bother saying anything.
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Alfalfablocks · 01/01/2017 13:25
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