Sudden black mood

[pregnantat50]

I'm having a very bad moment tonight.

I have to put on a front for the family, but these last few days I have been on a downward spiral that seems to be getting out of control. Maybe its the sudden realisation that this is the best life gets. I get up, I go to work, I come home, go to bed, cycle repeats itself, its not getting better and I feel like a black cloud is hanging over me. what on earth is the point in anything?

I am sorry to offload, just trying to stop the thoughts going round in my head. Normally i speak to a friend i know, but her answer is always alcohol and i dont want to drink, also she is down too and i think we trigger each other off. I hate feeling like this. sorry

[AnxiousCarer]

Have you spoken to your GP about how you are feeling they may be able to help. Feel freecto join wrists bitches for a safe place to natter we are all familiar with the place you are in.

[pregnantat50]

thank you AnxiousCarer I have been on and off antidepressants since the age of 15 (I am now 51). I had been coping so well with life but tonight i just cant think of anything except how bleak everything is. sorry I have no real reason to feel so low, well not anymore and I should be happy but i feel numb

[AnxiousCarer]

Thats depression for you... I've been there in the past.

[Believeitornot]

Is there anything you can do just for yourself. Eg exercise? Try a new hobby?

[AnxiousCarer]

I'm also finding meditation helpful