What is this? Because I am really bloody sick of it!

[IfIWasUrGirlfriend]

I thought it was anxiety, which I have suffered with in the past. But now not so sure.

In the middle of a conversation (in any setting - could be work, socially, with strangers, with good friends etc) I suddenly lose my train of thought, my voice cracks and I flush very badly. Its like a huge adrenalin surge or short lived panic attack coupled with a sort of momentary memory loss. Very physical. Its awful , and takes me totally unawares.

I've had CBT and therapy in the past for depression. Been well and happy for 2 years. Been taking beta blockers for the last couple of months to see if that helped and it seemed to have nipped it in the bud. But nope. Happened again yesterday really badly - totally innocuous conversation with friends and it happened out of the blue. I thought I was going to pass out.

I am so sick of it. It really undermines me, makes me feel like a nervy, shaky person when in fact I dont feel like that inside.

What the hell is it all about??

I am generally well, blood pressure fine. i think its psychological but cannot work out how to stop it .

[Marchate]

You should make a GP appointment this coming week, and explain the feelings you are having

You may need new medication, or more CBT

[0phelia]

To me it really does sound like a short lived but intense attack of anxiety.

Let me elaborate. Everyone experiences breif sudden memory loss such as "OMGosh what did I walk into this room for?" or "Hang on I really can't remember what the hell I was talking about" these fleeting mildly embarrassing moments are totally normal.

Where it becomes problematic is in the escalation of this moment inside your mind, when it becomes cold sweats, a frozen demeanour, thoughts like "Everyone is looking at me and they think I'm stupid" which is the onset of anxiety.

I believe CBT therapy would benefit you.