I've been on antidepressants for about 5 weeks. I think they're starting to make a difference. Not a massive difference, but still a positive difference. For the last couple of weeks I've started feeling that some tasks (such as cooking and showering) are now achievable goals whereas previously they felt impossible. This isn't everyday, but the number of days this is happening seems to be increasing.
The problem I'm having is that i'm also experiencing a lot of suicidal thoughts. I had these before I started the medication, but they seem to have increased over the last three to four weeks, with the last two weeks been particularly bad. I have absolutely no intention of acting on these, but they're there and I can't get rid of them and sometimes I just get so tired that I don't know what I want or how to make myself feel better. At first I wasn't sure if I just thought about it more because I was worried about it. There have been some days over the last couple of weeks where I've found it difficult to think about anything else. I can sometimes distract myself for a bit but then they come back again. I know everyone is different and reacts to medication differently, but has anyone else has this issue and how long does it last for?
I'm worried about telling people about this. I just don't want people to know about the kind of thoughts I'm having. I don't post on Internet forums very often and I'm worried that I'm going to say something and that someone will know who I am or that someone will know it's me, which is ridiculous.
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Is this a side effect of medication? How long will it last?
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seagullchaser · 19/03/2016 10:43
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