I won't make it

[Tiredofthisagain]

I just don't see how I will make it in life.

I'm at exhaustion point mentally.

I just want to end it all.

[whatdoIget]

Hopefully you've managed to sleep now op. I can't really advise you but I'm sure someone will be along eventually who will. Could you phone the Samaritans? I think maybe it's possible to text and email them now if talking would be too difficult

[whatdoIget]

Hi op, hopefully you're asleep now. I'm sure someone will be along soon who can advise you. Could you maybe contact the Samaritans? I think you can text or email them now if talking is too difficult

[whatdoIget]

Sorry

[Marchate]

Can you tell us one of the things that's troubling you? Sometimes a wee bit of help with one problem puts the rest in perspective (slightly)

Please take care x

[Tiredofthisagain]

Hello, I managed to fall asleep at five am...just woke up now.

Thank you for replying..

One of the things bothering me, so many...

He doesn't really talk to me in the house, my boyfriend that is, but makes every excuse under the sun to explain why he isn't or is talking to me

I am 29, and would love another baby but yet again the man I'm with doesn't seem to want to marry or have anymore children.

He is kind though. But for some reason I don't feel much love here

I have severe anxiety at night, and the other day it all got a bit much and he ended up slapping me.

But to be honest it was probably my fault I was being too playful and I just wanted to distract myself from the fact it was dark and time to sleep and he was just grumpy and tired.

I'm very sad all the time and in a nightmare.

I have no one and am pretty much locked in the house all day everyday.

[whatdoIget]

Hi op, it might be helpful if you report your post snd ask for it to be moved to relationships where you'll get more responses and advice.

[BeccaMumsnet]

Hello Tiredofthisagain. We are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources - here. You can also go to the Samaritans' website here, or email them on [email protected]. Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.

We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.

All the very best to you OP

[Marchate]

Tired, you are saying things that are worrying

• it was probably my fault
  

NO, it wasn't. If someone slaps you it's their fault entirely. That is violence

• I have no-one
  

Do you have family & friends who you seldom see, or do you in fact have no family & friends near where you live?

• pretty much locked in the house all day every day
  

Do you mean this literally, or it the way you feel?

• he is kind though
  

He doesn't sound kind at all. Is he 'kind' with material things? With care and attention? By being interested in your views? Or in between times when he is unkind?

Sorry to ask these questions when you are feeling awful. Have you seen your GP?

Take care

[Marchate]

Have things got any better?

[Tiredofthisagain]

Hello sorry for late reply, I ended up getting seriously drunk and forgot all about what day it was or this post...

I am not locked away literally I just feel it.

He has helped me out a lot financially so he is kind there, but he doesn't really talk to me. I feel ignored most of the time.

I'm ever so lonely today, started drinking at ten am just to block it out.

I do feel like it is my fault because he just wants a normal girlfriend who isn't sad all the time.

We have been together 12 months.

I start a higher dose of medicine when I pick up the prescription, but will need to go back to the doctors for an appointment.

I'm just so lonely.

[Tiredofthisagain]

And I have no family near me at all, they live 2-3 hours away.

I have no friends in real life either. I'm completely isolated.

He is the only adult I speak to day in and day out.

[whatdoIget]

What was your life like before you were with him? If you don't mind me asking if course