I was diagnosed with clinical depression about 4 years ago. Ive had panic attacks/anxiety throughout my life.
Its just all become too much.
After a fairly lengthy "good" spell I have crashed. I realise that this is me forever now, I'm not the person I was before my depression and I never will be again. Its going to be a continuous cycle of feeling better and coping to feeling out of my depth and hopeless.
How on earth do I cope with all this pain, everyday. I have a family who love me but don't really understand. To them I'm not too bad because I don't self harm or not be able to get out of bed. The only reason I do get out of bed is that I can't stand being "the centre of attention" and I'm also a chronic people pleaser.
I have to carry on. I can't stop the pain. I'm just terrified that this is all there is now.
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Is this me forever?
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Indigomontoya · 22/01/2016 23:52
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