My dad was diagnosed out of the blue June 2014 after collapsing and showing signs of having a stroke with a massive gbm4 brain tumour. It's the most aggressive form of brain cancer and is terminal. He was given 12 months to live and lasted 10 months and passed at home March 26th 2015. I had just had my 4th baby and was exclusively breastfeeding so spent weeks months in hospital with dad and my new baby . Dad was so strong and did not want to die . He endured 6 brain surgeries and never complained once . He was my rock. He was only 54 and had 7 beautiful grandchildren and my wonderful mam who is now a widow at age 52. Life is so so cruel. I watched him go through the most undignified slow death and it has really affected me so so bad. I miss him terribly amd have nightmares every night . I'm on prozac but they don't help. I'm scared to go to sleep because the nightmares are so vivid and awful. I don't talk to anyone about my feelings however my gp is lovely amd understands. I struggle to get to counselling as iv 4 children and my husband is a farmer so at work 7 days a week. He does however say he will watch kids so I can go. I just need to pluck up the courage to open up to a stranger. Anyways I just want the nightmares to stop so I can sleep.I'm physically exhausted and overcome with grief. I can't stop crying and if I talk about dad I'm in floods of tears.even now I'm in tears. His brain tumour was so out of the blue and we all as a family rallied round and cared for him till the end. It was awful watching a young fit healthy man slowly die. I just miss him so much and wish some days I could be with him but I'd never want my kids to feel the grief I feel from losing a parent. I'm so lost ? Please someone help me amd advise how I can sleep ? I think the insomnia is sending me crazy
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please please help me. not coping after losing my dad to brain cancer
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rundown25 · 03/11/2015 09:50
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