Anxiety and depression and work

[Binkybix]

Hi

Bit nervous posting here. I'm just looking to see if anyone feels the same and how people have overcome things. Here goes:

I'm really struggling with work. It's my first job back from mat leave but I had similar problems before, but they have got worse.

I don't feel capable of doing anything at all. Nature of the place I work and type of job means that I work in very different jobs and there's no set way of doing things, plus it's a completely new subject area for me.

I'm utterly miserable, crying all the time and it's taking over my life. But even though I do have phases of being down I do just think this is a result of feeling utterly incapable and scared of being found out. I know it's ridiculous but I just want to run away from my whole life because of this.

Does anyone else feel like this? Am I alone?

[Binkybix]

Aaaagh. I've managed about 2 hours sleep now need to go in. All the work things I can't do have been going through my head.

[MangoBiscuit]

I didn't want to read and run, I just wanted to say your are not alone. If you haven't already, speak to your GP.

[teawomen]

This was exactly me after birth of dd. please see your doc.

[teawomen]

It will get better.

[LineRunner]

I think it's really important that you work out much of this is work-related, and how much is potentially related to your mental health.

Regarding work, are you adequately supervised and trained, or just left to sink or swim?

Are you anxious about other things in your life, or only work?

Sometimes people hate work for good reasons and benefit from talking to a manager or HR person about making changes.

Meanwhile I do agree with pp about seeing your GP about your feelings of unhappiness. Not sleeping properly must be making you feel pretty awful.

[Moniker1]

You can get some meditation tapes though difficult to find time to use them with a small baby but I found that doing that every day calmed my mind - though no instant cure.
Walking, again hard with a baby, can you put baby in a sling and walk in the evening. The exercise releases endorphins so you do feel better and the getting out can give you a break from household stuff you feel you should be doing. Not a cure but should help meanwhile.

[molehillormountain]

I have a friend who was desperate with anxiety through work mainly and she turned to kundalini yoga. Have a research online, it really helped her-it has also helped me through a difficult period.

[Binkybix]

Hello All.

Thanks for the replies - appreciate them all.

I've been to the docs and had some CBT for general worry but now reading a CBT book on self esteem where a lot of this might come from. I'm not keen on ADs as I'm pregnant.

I don't really get training - I'm relatively senior, enough so in just expected to get on with it. I've spoken to my manager and she's sympathetic but if I'm not up to the job there's not much she can do.
I hate feeling like a pointless idiot all the time.