I'm coming to terms with a diagnosis of a chronic illness. I've had a relapse over the last three weeks and am struggling to imagine what life is going to be like in the future.
I don't want my children to have a mum that can't take an active part in their lives or a husband that comes home to a housebound wife.
Today has been a disaster - everything I've tried to do I've struggled with. It's on days like this that I have irrational fuck it moments. I think about driving my car into a brick wall or just throwing myself down the stairs but then after seeing the head fuck left behind by others in the same way my reality kicks in.
Two other members of my extended family have committed suicide.
When my illness is under control I'm ok. In fact I'm a pretty positive person and despite my life changing beyond my control I've just got on with it. There are plenty of people in worse situations. It's when I relapse that I struggle.
I don't know whether to talk to the gp about this. I'm reluctant to add Ad's into the mix as I'm so spaced a lot of the time as it is.
Anyone else in a similar situation? I'm really stuck about what to do when I'm like this.
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How do you know if suicidal thoughts are just that? Thoughts?
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HeyMacWey · 21/11/2014 15:59
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