I think I'm cracking up

[namechangeroo]

I don't really know what the point of this post is. I guess I just don't feel I am coping with life at the moment.

I hate my job and it makes me feel very down every day. I also have no self-confidence, I think no one likes me and that they all think I'm boring. I struggle to find things to say, especially in group situations, and so choose not to go out and socialise which of course makes it worse.

I have a lovely boyfriend of a year who is great, yet I get angry and moody with him for no reason. I feel jealous of another woman who is our mutual friend - she is happier, prettier, more fun than me and I feel really resentful of her, whcih is awful as she is truly a lovely person. I have not mentioned this to anyone, but this...hatred niggles away at me all the time.

I feel like I am pushing everyone away. I am pushing my friends away because I make excuses not to see them, I am pushing my boyfriend away because I don't want to go out with him and my friends and am snappy, my work colleagues don't respsect me because I am useless at my job and I just feel like a huge loser.

I am 31, no children (although I am not that bothered about having them), and feel like the future is very bleak. Every day I ask myself "what will become of me" and I just don't know. How do I change?

[amillionyears]

I always think with this sort of thing,that there is often a root cause.It could be
possible depression
tricky childhood
feeling unwell
bullied when younger
need to a new direction in life
or something else.

Would any of these be applicable to you do you think.

[bansku]

Maybe you are just bored and in a wrong job. Do you have any hobbies? You should look for something interesting to do instead of thinking too much. It sounds you are over analysing everything.