I'm doing all the things I'm meant to do but I just can't hold it all together.
It's all so relentless and I have nobody to help me. I can't ask for help because it's so pathetic that I can't do basic things.
I really don't like myself and while I love my children I don't think I'm a good mother. I look a mess and feel like one too.
All I do is cook, clean and pick up other peoples shit, yet my house is still a tip, we have ants and I struggle to get my kids to eat anything decent.
It sounds so stupid because I know everyone else is in the same situation and has to do the things I do.
My parents live hundreds of miles away, I have BIL close but him and his GF refuse to help, everything has to be on their schedule (and why should they help, it was my choice to have kids). My DH works long hours at our own business that is constantly hanging on the verge of loosing everything, and no we can't get out without loosing everything.
So our lives revolve around the small amounts of money I have to survive on and my kids who have just pulled the couch apart for the 100th time today.
My 2yo kicks and bites me, I have no control over him. I've read books about toddler behavior and been on here loads but he's still a nightmare.
I'm tired and have been for 2 years, even though my kids sleep okay these days (they used to be awful). I've been to the doctor with every ache and pain, I look like a fucking hypochondriac, been given blood and urine tests and evrything comes back fine. I don't know whats wrong with me.
I know what depression is, I had pnd with both kids but this is different.
Who knows, just needed to write this down and calm down. Wish I could take a few days off from my life.
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Trying to pull myself together but struggling
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SurroundedByPlasticCrap · 02/05/2012 16:34
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