I was going to name change for this but folk don't know me and it's nothing to be embarrassed about I guess.
I know I probably need to see the GP but it's a huge step for me to take. Over the last year or so I've been having very negative fearful thoughts, mainly related to my job and my performance, I work in a highly stressful environment and have to handover 'work' on a regular basis, ie a the end o every shift. I can stop panicking and worrying that I will be 'found out' that I have done something wrong or tha I've missed something huge, I find myself with a knot in my stomach until I go back to work and then the cycle starts again.
I can't enjoy my time off and I'm short with my kids and my husband, I want to spend all of my time in bed because if I'm asleep I can't worry. I sit going over things I've said or done or things people have said to me until I realise I've been holding my breath, actually forgetting to breathe because of the anxiety. I haven't really opened up to my husband, I've always been one of those people who suck life up and got on with it. Add that to the fact that I'm doing a job I yearned to do and actually do love many aspects of it. I don't know how supportive work would be if I approached them, not very I suspect and I really don't want it to be common knowledge how I'm feeln as tha will compound my feelings of uselessness and the knowledge that in all likelihood people will actually be talking about me behind m back would send me even more crazy than I feel already.
Does this sound like anxiety? Is it curable? Am I going to have to give up a job I love because I can't cope with the pressures, which is what I'm leaning to right now. I feel alone and don know where to turn.
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BenedictsCumberbitch · 31/03/2012 20:14
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