My name is fuzzymind and i am an alcoholic

[fuzzymind]

I have to stop drinking. my kids need a sober mum. I only drink when they are in bed but its still not ok I hope i can find some others in the same boat,going back to AA tonight. Its a big step and i am determined this time. I can't stop crying, i have to stop for good. keep kidding myself that i can be a "normal" drinker. enough is enough

[shaketheshame]

Hi Darling. I'm sorry you are feeling this way . I was in exactly the same boat as you few months ago. I could have written your post. What happened to you to make you feel like that ? Do you take any medication ?

[madmouse]

Well done, cliche I know but the first step....

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[fuzzymind]

thanks so much i am on citalopram too. When i am drinking i am numb and chilled out. when i am not drinking i am emotional and lonely, i don't know which is worse but i know drinking is not an option anymore

[shaketheshame]

Are you a sahm ? I'm at home. I'm on citalopram. I used to drink 1-2 bottles of wine a day because I felt lonely and depressed. Fuzzy, with help you can get better ! Did you talk to your gp ?

[fuzzymind]

I am a sahm. Im fine in the day coz i have the kids but its at night when they are in bed i get the wine out to numb the loneliness. Not going to GP because i dont want it on my records but i know what i have to do, been to AA before but then i stopped as i was "better" I was thinking this time to just keep going. It all started with my having the odd glass of wine when out then at home, then it was a bottle. Last night i drank 2 and still feel a bit pissed. Thats why i have to stop because a feel like the worst mum in the world. So fucking angry with myself. My dad was an alcoholic and i swore i would never ever get drunk when i had children. I wish i could turn back time