I've recently after a break of almost a year gone back into therapy, this time because my anxiety about ds's health got hard to handle. I'm seeing a very well trained and experienced psychologist and it didn't take us long to figure out that the anxiety is linked to the abuse in my childhood so we are working on that again...
She has worked a lot with offenders also and she has told me that it sounds like the abuse I suffered was sadistic, ie he didn't just get aroused by having sex with small people, he actively enjoyed causing physical pain while he was at it. It makes sense. It's yet another puzzle piece in its place.
So why does it knock me for six again? It doesn't change what he actually did.
And does it explain why I rarely feel physical pain, rarely notice I've injured myself until the bruise appears and have a tendency to hurt myself under stress?
Just wonder if anyone else has dealt with it.
Am ok by the way, upset but not massively distressed or anything.
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Mental health
sadistic sexual abuse - careful this may be sensitive to some
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madmouse · 22/12/2011 17:28
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