Please do not judge me, I am trying to get help.
I lie, a lot, for no reason. Not about big things, just little things. The first time I remember doing this was when I was seven - they asked us to write 'news' about our weekend and I hadn't done anything exciting so I made up a story about a robin landing on my hand. The teacher didn't realise it was a story and said it was lovely and asked if it was true, I said yes.
Since then I have lied for no reason. Sometimes what I say is true but I make out I was there when something happened when actually it is second hand news. Sometimes I tell people I can do things for them that I cannot do. Other times I just make things up about myself and my life and I don't even realise until afterwards that I've been standing there just lying my head off for no reason whatsoever.
Last week I told some online friends I was ill and had to be taken to hospital (the friends were not from here). I did not even realise what I was doing until afterwards. One of them found out the lie and we are no longer friends; that is the worst thing I've ever done and I have no idea why I said it. When I did it, I wasn't even thinking, "This is a lie," I just said it.
I don't know why I do this. Am I the only one? I fear I am. But I want to stop - I realised last night when my friend confronted me how utterly abhorrent my behaviour is and how vile and sick a person I am.
I need to stop. Please, please, does anyone know what I should do? Should I get counselling or is that not for this sort of thing? Please. I am sick of being an awful person.
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Please. I keep lying, I feel so awful.
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KittyTwoShoes · 30/11/2010 20:35
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