I've been diagnosed with PND/PNA. I'm under the perinatal mental health team but obviously change isn't immediate.
DS is 9 weeks and I'm not in a good place. DH was doing a lot of his night feeds so I could sleep but he's just started a very demanding new job so I've taken over. It's really making me resent my baby. Tonight for example he keeps waking and screaming. I'm pretty sure it's colic but we have no coping strategy as he's never had it before. He'll only settle on top of me so I've slept for about 1.5 hours in total. I also know I have the whole bloody day while DH is at work 9-11 just trapped with this screaming child. I can face these long days with some sleep behind me but I don't have that just now, last night was just as bad. I just want to seep, DH is lying next to me snoring and I actually hate him for it.
I want to love him and be a good mum but I really feel like I'm doing the things I have to do rather than want to do. Pretty sure this makes me the worst mum in the world. Who doesn't love a tiny baby that they wanted for years before he came along? It wasn't supposed to be like this.
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I resent my baby
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amazedmummy · 24/01/2020 04:11
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