Basically, I’ve recently turned 36 and whether or not we have a second baby has really been playing on my mind.
DH and I have a fantastic DD who is almost 1. It took 2 years TTC and then 3 failed pregnancies in fairly quick succession to have her. We adore her and it was such a happy time to have her join our family.
Now I’m coming to the end of mat leave, seeing DD become more independent and turning older, I can’t stop thinking about newborns and the possibility of a second child. Probably remembering though rose-tinted glasses what it was like to have newborn DD, yes. But that feeling of a new life growing, the tiny squishy newborns, it’s so often on my mind.
Then I think you can’t have your first experience of anything a second time and maybe I’m just yearning for a happy
(and Covid free!) time, not another baby.
Then I think we’ve hit the jackpot with DD and maybe stop there. We are (to use that dreaded phrase) comfortably off but by no means care-free in money terms. It would be better for DD resource-wise if we only had her, and less stressful for me and DH financially, which again impacts family life. Life with two would mean moving house further out, longer commute/hours etc. I’m obviously biased, but our DD seems smart and ahead on lots of things so we often wonder if nurturing her talents, whatever they turn out to be, would be the wiser thing.
Then I go to the thought of her being alone when we die. But who’s to say she wouldn’t be anyway or that she’d even get on with siblings (DH and I don’t with ours.)
Plus DD is such a “good baby” - easy going, great sleeper, very affectionate and cute. If we had a more challenging baby I’m not sure we’d cope as no family to really on.
There are also the concerns about the stress and pain TTC brought us last time and do we potentially want to put our happy little gang of 3 through that as well as the new financial pressures if we do have a second? Would it be a net detriment to DD? And do me and DH as a couple.
But then I think of all the additional love and fun there might be too, if we were 4. Before we had DD, could never have imagined how much better life would be with her. What if it’s better again with another?
I guess my age is what’s made this come into focus so much. We’d have to TTC now(ish) in case it all takes another 3-4 years as the problems were never diagnosed. But TTC now seems even more stressful given all the uncertainty of Covid and DH’s shielded status.
Sorry for the essay and thank you for reading. It’s really helped just to write this down. I’d love to hear all and any thoughts.
YABU - you’re overthinking it, have a big G&T and revisit this time next year, still a bit of time left.
YANBU - second children don’t always bring more rainbows and sunshine, you’re right to be cautious and more isn’t always better.
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AncientRainbowABC · 30/05/2020 12:25
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Am I being unreasonable?
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