I have a thread over on SN chat atm about my DD. She's 2.6 and has a Global Developmental Delay including Physical Delay, Speech Delay, Hip Problems, Squinted eye, Hearing and Chest issues including Asthma - I've posted about her before.
I've always been a pretty laid back person. At school the other girls used to say if "RedPatch is crying then it's got to be serious because she never cries".
But recently I've been finding myself getting anxious every time the post arrives. DD has a lot of appointments every week and I find myself dedicating more and more time to her conditions. I don't mind because she's my DD but I feel so anxious when a letter comes through the door addressed to "Parent/Guardian of Little Patched Ankle" and even sometimes crying putting the dates into the calendar and seeing "appointment for Little Patched at x hospital, at y time and on z date"
I'm already on antidepressants due to the stress of everything with DD. But it's getting too much again. I've considered giving her up, especially when we have 12+ appointments in a month and it feels like I'm paying £500 a month for her to not attend Nursery which is a lot of money. But I wouldn't do that, as I do love her, and her me (she told her keyworker at Nursery "Mumma love-y" (mummy lovely)) and it wouldn't be fair to her and I'd always wonder "what if".
But I dread the postman arriving. I know it's not his fault, he only delivers the letters, but I feel sick at the thought of the post arriving tomorrow - bills and junk mail I can cope with it's the appointments. I feel so worried for her, and her future. It's blood tests for this and urine samples for that, with an x-ray on her hips and chest and an MRI thrown in for good measure. This is surely unsustainable when she's at school?
I don't have health anxiety and manage to make the appointments fun and an adventure for DD - stuff like taking the train there instead of driving as she loves trains. But it shouldn't be like this, should it? I'm scared of the postman which is ridiculous because he's actually a very nice man with 2 grown up children and a dog.
So AIBU to ask how I can get over this anxiety? And how I can stop being scared of the postman?
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RedPatchedAnkle · 12/01/2018 12:45
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