Firstly- I have been to the GP already. I know that I have something going on emotionally but I can't work out what it is or why.
The GP started talking about anxiety and I dismissed it as I don't feel ready to talk about it. I'm not sure why- perhaps the stigma attached to mental health issues it's me off sharing how I'm feeling with people in RL?
My symptoms are...
constant nausea
Increased heart palpitations
Headaches
Disturbed vision
Trembling hands
Emotional
I could sleep forever
Loss of appetite
Loss of interest in pretty much anything really.
Everything just feels a bit numb- like I'm not me anymore.
My DP has noticed and I think he's mentioned it to his DM as she sat me down and asked if I thought I may be depressed. Luckily someone interrupted by walking in to the room we were in so I didn't have to say anything and she hasn't mentioned again since.
I have this fear of talking about it. I have 2 DC and worry that they will think I can't take care of them when I'm feeling like this. I can and they are absolutely fine but everything seems like such a chore at the moment. Even things like getting out of bed, getting dressed etc.
I feel like I struggle to get through each day and am not enjoying anything anymore. I know that I'm probably depressed and I need to get myself better but I don't know how. When I'm out and about I'm ok it's just getting myself up and out. I feel sick when I'm walking to work or going to do the food shop because I don't want to be doing it but I'm ok once I'm there. I have these dark moments when I'm by myself. I feel like I need some time off work to get myself better but would worry about going back once I've been off. I'm worried people will talk about me.
Any ideas what's going on with me? Any self help recommendations? Should I take some time off or will it make things worse when I have to go back? I don't know what to do for the best. I want to get better.
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racetothefinishingline · 18/12/2017 14:17
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