I have been on flouxitene since my youngest was born 14 months ago.
I have older children one of them has had a serious decline in her behaviour over the last 2 or 3 years. By the time younger dd was born it was really taking its toll.
She is in year 2 now and the school have asked refer her for assesment for things like autism and ADHD.
I am still convinced that part of the problem has been my inability to bond with her, it's hard to connect with her on any level. She's very clever but she just seems to be elsewhere when you talk to her. She tries to hug but puts her arms round your neck and squeezes so hard it hurts. I have bruises from her hugging. I actually have to stop myself flinching away automatically. She does things like jump from furniture in too of me which actually hurts - we just can't seem to get her to understand that these things hurt.
She has no friends, she wees herself , she bites her own arms.
I just feel like if I could get through to and just explain it would be ok but I just can't and actually I don't feel I want to try now. I'm sick of being hurt and even things like the way she keeps coming up really close and whispering in my ear then shouting just upset me .
I know that the pnd I had had nothing to do with my baby and everything to do with dd - I just feel awful admitting that. But now my gp wants to stop treatment for pnd because my baby is older but dd is just getting worse . I can't cope.
I know I have to just wait for the assessments but I'm too ashamed to admit that I just don't like looking after dd rather than having proper pnd.
Aibu to want to just try and carry on telling people I have pnd since the alternative is telling them I just can't look after a 6 year old.
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Aibu to be too ashamed to admit that my "PND" had nothing to do with my baby.
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inthisway · 31/12/2016 00:03
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